me and my life

life goes on

2007-12-10T14:46:00.000-08:00

i got a feeling that jolie knew what i wrote on the blog about her cause she has been like a total sad and computer frick! she didnt use to have a computer and even if she did there was no enternet but she did recently.... she is like totally hooked kn to it! and even though i dont really like her i do not want another friend holding a grudge against me.

what i meant by another is i use to have this very very close friend,i told her every thing she was really smart to. but one time i pushed her by accident, she thought i did it on purpose and she didnt talk to me for a long time, i apologised to her many times. she said i ask my mother if i can forgive you a not, she forgave me but she still tries to avoid me, scince 2006 till this very day......

thats was one of the worst days ever, i felt soo sad, i mean like loosing a friendworst thing eva! if you read this and thik is bad there is worst in my life. just yesterday just because i said told my mom why my sister's teeth is always yellow!!! she cried and my mom comforted her, i got the blamed! and the next day she said that i looked like a boy i cried. i know, i was upset cuz even my friends say so i was soo hurt by that remark! my parents knew that but still stick on her(my sis) side, the more i thought about it the more i cried. they scolded me for crying!! but life goes on what can i do about it!!
I SUFFERED SCINCE MY SIS CAME INTO MY LIFE!!!!

i am back!!

2007-12-07T16:47:00.000-08:00

i was back approximately 3 days ago from genting and malaca, i was busy thats why i did not write. at genting i realised that my BF is nt my BF cuz we were outdoor playing the roller coasters and etc, when we had to go in for lunch. after lunch we weren't allowed to go out to play again and she said something to make me see that finding BF is nt easy! she said "if you weren't here maybe we could go outdoor without you." i felt she did not have any true friends at all cuz friends do not treat each other that way! and i realised that she is super irritating, she kept complaing on so many things, she does not know how fortunate she is!! she also pick on her younger brother as if he is her personal slave,her younger brother gives in to her like hu knows anyone else who has such a giving bro!! i forgotten to tell ya that my cuzin tagged along.

but.. i enjoyed it any ways. after 3 days we went to malaca. we shoped for some stuff for my mom's mom corse she gave us a 100RM each and we went home and their A n W float is great!! but i caught a cold and bad cough!;(

sick in the holidayz.....

blaming me again....

2007-11-29T22:12:00.000-08:00

today i asked my parents a few questions and i got a scolding and they blame my BF. i know,i know she is very talketive but they should never talk about my BF that way! and they are putting almost all the blame on her which is not her fault! today i had band practice with Ruth,she USED to be my BF but after some misunderstanding she did not really like me any more but we are still friends.and i am those kind of people who let ppl boss me around in class cuz i stay true to friends and ruth kinda boss me around the most but i let her do it cos i betrayed her. in my life those people who get bossed around and are like dogs to the ppl are called side-kicks and these are the few people offence.... Craina,her hero is RUTH. melanie, she is not really a side-kick cuz hner hero,priscilla,is really nice to her. last of all me, my heroes are almost every one who are smarter and closest to me, but they are really nice and there are many other side-kicks in this world it's just that we are unaware of....... but in my life joelle is the luckiest cuz she is neither a side-kick nor a hero she is a normal person, a helpful person.......;)

2007-11-27T19:15:00.000-08:00

today i had lots of fun,i played with my sis and stuff but when it came to nite, she told me to wait for her but i took a few steps up and she moaned....Then as i was waiting she reasoned with me, she said "ok loh, go la go la,next time i dont wait for you" but i am those ppl hu will debate until i am proven rite... or at lest till the other person cant reply. then again i won lah and i asked her if she wanted to watch T.V. then she said "no" in a small voice and i said "huh?" she shoutedc at me"NO" then i went bathe, when i finished i turn off the heater and made the heater to the lowest so the water will be freezing cold for her, and she will apologise. it worked lah but this is how she apologise "sorry lah!!" I mean like hu would accept an apology which is not scincire...... so i helped her but i still ignored her,and than she said ok lah tell me what you want!!?? i did not reply of corse i am not backing down! and rite at the moment 7.04 PM i am still angry with her,im gonna wait till she apologises with the good attitude! ok i am gonna watch the 7 pm show,bb all

2007-11-25T22:08:00.000-08:00

today, my BFF,jolie,came over to my house to play for the VERY 1st time,i know it sounds wierd having a best friend to have nvr come to your house b4,but still... but saddly my cous came over and i couldnt do much with her and my cous parents and my grandparents..... i finally can have my BFF to come over and i did not have lot and lots of fun:'( i am nt saying i do not like my cous or my elders but i wanted to have alone time with my BFF we could have sooo much to talk about!! and i know we are going to meet again sooner or later but we will be in different hotels and in different cars!! and our parents are so controlable about us we cant even talk on the fone for a long time in front of them,or SMS!:'(....

but i realised one thing my BF,my cous and i share something in comman we all have very very lame youger siblings and we get blame on what ever they do(e.g. falling down,snatching our things and so much more) then we went for dinner saddly my BF couldnt come along:'( but i found out that my cous has a crush on this special someone but this is all i can say at the moment as i promised to never tell and even though i did nt promise to not use it against him but i will not cos i know that he will be upset, but sometimes i have to let it out as i know it will make the ppl included happier, and i am sorry priscilla if you ever see this blog cause i know "i let a big cat out of the bag" to nicole but she felt a lot better knowing what was going on cause she was once my BF i knew her well, she would rather be hurt then to be left out in anything so i told her your seceret priscilla........ but even though she mite not be talking to you it is not becuse of this.it is about other times she remembered when you two had a little bit of quarrels here and there, and three of us had lot of troubles but now there is a new year ahead of us and even though you are letting go lots of friends you will meet them again and you will meet new ones to share your troubles and happiness with!!:)

haiz... family...

2007-11-22T10:33:00.000-08:00

when i say my sis is a cry baby i mean she is and will forever be one!! last nite just because i shouted at her she cried as if someone is about to kill her!! and then my mom came and i got a scolding because i shouted and mei mei!! oh yeh and this is exacly what happen... my cousin, ezra, we were having pillow fites then we paused the game then mei mei hit me hard on the lips thats when i said you know we paused the game rite?? why you must hit me then she said then just now you also hit me leh!!! so i shouted but just now you never say it was painful and even if i did then it will be an accident!!!! then she scremed and cried and went into my moms room and complain! but luckily mummy and daddy was on my side, then i went to my room with my cousin and we had a long talk and i thought that if put myself in her shoes i mite cry if my older sister shouted at me so then i decided to call her back and play with my cousin and i. okay maybe i was a little harsh on her then..... but later we contineud playing we had lots of fun!! but in the morning something else happened because i was watching TV then they siad if i dont come up they will not let me play, i thouht that they were just kidding so i said ok loh then i dont play but actually they werent. so i went to play the computer,but i told them(my cousin and my sister) i wanted to play but my sister said "you dont expect us to restart?!" i was so upset with her i mean like if i said that to her she would go complaining to my dad , but i just curled up in my bed and started to cry, then i called my ex-best friend,she comforted me alot and she told me to just let it go it was the first time anyway and then later i can go join in....... i said ok lah like i mean yup what she said had good points and then the rest got on really well at least for now lah. i dont think there is a girl as unlucky as me in this world............*sob* well if there is tag me their blog!! and i hope to see my friends again!!

lucky!!

2007-11-20T12:03:00.000-08:00

good, no one made fun of me so far........ i still have a friend begging me to let her know my blog bt i know once i tell her she will make me the laughing stock!!! sooo.... maybe i should jst tell her cause dats wat blogs are for arent they??

friends

2007-11-18T17:12:00.000-08:00

today is the official start of the holidays, i will really really miss my friends, and even though i love the holidays i also kind of hate the holidays, cause it means, year end is coming soon or it is here and you wont get to see most of your friends for a long time.....=( it is very upsetting to let go of a 2-4 yr friendship.

and i jst shifted house so i changed a new bus and i met lots of new friends, some P6, so that means i wont get to see them next yer bt, there is a slim chance, i specially will miss yuki foo cause she is so funny and sometimes when we have "quarrels" we have LOTS of fun, goodbye yuki a true friend....=l and goodlock with the troubles ahead of you.......

more then friends

2007-11-17T10:32:00.000-08:00

when i was very young i had a little crush on a boy named nicklous(sorry dunno hw to spell. he was really really sweet,you will feel as if you can entrust him with everything you have!! we only spent a year together but that time was wonderful,and then one day we had to change schools and we couldnt see each other ever again, i was so upset, i tried to forget bt i jst could'nt it is soo hard to give up.... i was so upset and nw i still can remember hw he looks like verytt clearly. i know i am young bt i felt love and many many feelings all at a same time and i really really loved him!! i hope my friends dun make fun of me after reading this as i kept this seceret for over 5 years and i thought about it long and hard and i decided to show it...... so i really really hope to see him again and i also hope my friends will nt make fun of me! you will nt want ppl to make fun of you when you write your secerets on your blog would you?

bye friends

2007-11-17T02:38:00.000-08:00

today will be the last day i am seeing my P6 friends......=( i enjoyed the precious moments with them. my heart wrecks to let them go,we spent a few years together bt still hd lots of fun!! i hope to see them a gain!=)

friends 4eva

2007-11-16T22:48:00.000-08:00

as i went through the blogs of friends i was really touched on wat they put on their blog about friendship.... so here is wat i want to say to them i know we have been through the darkest time,we had lots and lots of quarrels, we went through thick and thin, together we can reach out for anything .and carina i am really sorry about the ruth thing i know how you are feeling right nw, joelle you have bin a true frend to me,thx for kiping the secerets!!

here is wat i have to say, and this is for everyone tresure your friendship..... it mite last 4ever and it mite nt bt dats how life is, it comes and goes though it mite hurt bt tink on the bright side of things!!! MUAXX TO ALL

holidays are awaiting!!

2007-11-15T20:30:00.000-08:00

for the holidays i will be going to genting with my BF we were born in the same hospital, 2 days apart, our moms LOVE SWIMMING ON THE TABLE(mahjong), we share most of the same hobbies,like playing with technology,playing imaginary games and many more! we are gonna have TONS of fun wish you were coming! and she always helps me with my frend problems, though at times she can be a bit lame bt she is a great fren!!

ballet peformance

2007-11-15T20:16:00.000-08:00

other then the problems i face at home, my hobbies are dancing,playing d com, drama acting and fasion designing!! and today i had a ballet performance, i really enjoyed it but i had to pretend i didnt or else i will get make fun of and will be looked down on and laughed at......

all schools are alike and we all gat blamed on something.... and of corse we have things to be emberrased about, but we are unique, so we should show it but it would realy really help if the ppl dun do things to hurt our feelings.